In Happier News - Wedding update

This weekend I checked off a lot of things on the wedding to do list.

Friday I took my mom's veil to her friend's house, and discussed how she was going to make it into a thing of beauty fitting for 2015 (right now it is super 80s).

Saturday Eric and I went to the mall and looked at his ring. He picked out what he liked so that I could go order.

Sunday I went to mom's and let her show me some things she is working on for the unity candle and a few other décor items.

Monday I went to Eric's mom's house and began sewing the bridesmaids gifts. I am fully finished one project, and we started another. One more day there and I will be finished with the girls' presents. Eric and his dad created the bases of the Chuppah for the wedding and they are ready to go to our friend who will plant flowers in them.

Tuesday I went out in the afternoon in search of a bra/corset for my fitting on Saturday. (nothing like waiting to the last min) I didn't find anything, I am hoping I don't need it after all.
I also ordered Eric's ring while I was out.

Last night we were working on the wording for our Ketubah - the Jewish Marriage contract, and basically wrote it so it was unique to us. We decided to use the saying on the Ketubah as our vows, so our vows were written last night as well!.

Plus, last week Jan finished our invitation and is working on the RSVP cards. We booked the venue for the rehearsal brunch, and I figured out the escort card/favors.

So much done, yet so much to do.

I need to figure out the little people's gifts, create the escort cards, create the programs, create some signs for the wedding and get the invites out the door next month.

Eric needs to figure out his gifts for the boys, and make sure they order their suits! We also need to make the corn hole game.

We are in double digits- 96 to be exact. There is still so much more than this list has on it, but its a start. I am just excited how much we accomplished this weekend!

There is so much more that I haven't blogged about, that I want to blog about, and yet, the only thing on my heart is something pretty sad.

You may or may not know, my grandfather is battling lung cancer. He did radiation and tests now show there is a 2nd spot.

When I found out he was first diagnosed, I didn't know how to handle it.

I am blessed beyond measure. I am 30 years old, and still spend holidays with all four of my grandparents. It is not lost on me how rare that is.

I found out in August. All I could think about was my wedding, how sad I would be if my grandfather wasn't there. I got angry because that felt so selfish.

We knew that radiation wouldn't do much, there was not going to be a story where Grandpap, beat cancer. Now with the 2nd spot, it is more like when.

At Christmas, it was in the back of all of our heads, that this was probably the last Christmas with him, but there was hope that it wouldn't be. Now it seems as though it really was the last one (though I pray the doctors are wrong)

Now it is bigger than my wedding. I am selfish, I don't want to spend a family dinner, birthday celebration, thanksgiving, Christmas without him. I don't want there to not be the latest joke from readers digest being told.

I haven't had to deal with this before, and I don't want to. This pretty much sucks and I don't know how to handle it.