I want to do big things.

My life is at a stand still I feel like.

While I LOVE my job, I love the girls I really do, I am just not doing what I want with my life.

I want to be a counselor and help children.

I have been tossing around the idea of going back to school and getting my masters and I really feel like I need to seriously do some research and see if I can make this happen.

I need to do what I am passionate about, and lately I have just been feeling like I am selling myself short.

But, I am scared too. This weekend I am alone, and while I lounge at the pool, I am really going to mediate and pray about my options.

I really need to figure out how to finance, and juggle life to meet my goals. I can no longer ignore the nagging in my head about this. I need to do this. I need to feel fulfilled and like I am making a difference (is that arrogant?)

I wish 100 times a day that someone would have told me to stick it out at UMD and get my masters degree. I was burnt out and just didn't have 1-2 more years of school in me at the time, but it truly is my biggest regret.

So, dear bloggy friends, have you gone back to school? How did you do it? Did you work? How did you pay for it? Tips? Tell me I am crazy? Will it make me happy? Tell me I can do it? AHH! My mind is racing about this and you my friends are getting the result of that.

What the heck?!

Don't judge me when I tell you this, but I have a strange desire to experience an earthquake. Not a big one, not one that does damage or hurts people, but I want to know what it feels like. Earthquakes have always been interesting to me. Such a strange phenomena to me.

It is weird I know, but one day I hope to feel one.

Now, I lived in Maryland for 14 years and now I live in Virginia. When you think of these places you don't think oh earthquakes happen there. Nope, thats Cali. I wake up today at 6:15 and get on facebook like normal (what you don't get on email and facebook before you get out of bed to pee? Maybe I need help.) EVERYONE on facebook is talking about an earthquake. I have a handful of friends in Cali, so I didn't think much, then I woke up and realized it was people from home! WHAT?!

There was a 3.7 earthquake about 40 miles from my parents house.  People where I used to live felt it. The people I work for felt it. Me? Oh I slept right through it, if we even felt it.

NOOOOO, this could have been my chance. Fail. Ha!

But seriously- how crazy is it that Maryland had an earthquake. Yikes.

I am linking up with Mama Kat's writers workshop

Stephen King? Really?

I saw this writing analyser on another blog, and decided to try it out. I copied one of my blog posts into it and got Stephen King. When I first got Stephen King I was a little surprised. Then I did another post and got it again, and a third one too!

I don't think I have ever read a Stephen King book before. I find it interesting I write like him.  Cool though.

You should try it out too, tell me, who do you write like? (click on the button bellow to analyse your writing)

I write like
Stephen King

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

Happy 4th of July!!

Just like Memorial Day, the meaning behind the celebration of July 4th has become more apparent and meaningful to me the older I get. Sure I love the cookouts and the fireworks, but I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of thankfulness for our freedom on this day. The older I get, the more aware I am of how others in other countries live. Every single day when I get up and get dressed in what I pick out and go to work I take for granted that I am even allowed to do these things. I can vote (and I do now!) I have the freedom to be me. There are so many people in other countries that don't have those rights and freedoms.

We are so lucky that so many men and women stand up and go fight so we can be a free country. Now that I have so many friends in the military (two of whom are getting ready for a deployment in the next 2 months) and a brother in the Marines I am very aware of the sacrifices made so that I can be free.

Today while you are hanging out and watching fireworks, take a little time to remember those who are securing our freedom right now as we speak.

America is really a great place to live, but it is because of those that protect our freedom that it is such a great place. We are very lucky!

I hope you have a great 4th of July! Stay safe!!

Spontaneous Beach Day

I had one of the best days I've had in a long time yesterday.

Thursday night, I was trying to decide that to do on Friday since I had off work. Matt suggested Ocean City Maryland. I said REALLY??!!! He said sure. I immediately started packing before he changed his mind! You see Matt isn't a beach person. He has skin that doesn't love the sun. I love the beach, I would totally live at the beach if I could.

So I packed our towels, sunscreen and printed off coupons for things to do and made sure I knew how to get there from VA. We got up early (for us) and headed out. The trip should have taken about 3 hours. It took about 4, I guess some people were starting their 4th of July weekends early!

We drove across the big Chesapeake Bay Bridge. One of the longest and tallest bridges I have ever been on, I love it. It is so pretty. I always look at the sailboats out on the water and wish that was me.

We made it to the beach and walked up the boardwalk a bit and claimed out piece of sand. We sat on the beach for about 2 hours (yay! thanks honey!) watching people and talking. It was so nice. The weather was perfect. Not hot at all. Low 80s I think with a breeze that never allowed you to sweat!

Then we went back and dropped off the towels and stuff at the car and walked the boardwalk. One of my favorite things to do. I have been to Ocean City many times and walking the boardwalk and people watching my 2nd favorite thing to do, nothing beats laying on the beach for me. We walked into some of the interesting shops (resisted the urge to buy a neon OC MD shirt - ha) then got the staple of an Ocean City trip. Thrashers French Fries. They are so good. I love them. Good thing this was only a day trip because they are certainly not good for you!!

We headed back to the car, I changed clothes and off to mini golf we went! The first place we played so quickly that we decided to go to another course. ( I didn't want to play the first course again, Matt got 3 holes in one!) We played the other course and then decided to try and find dinner as it was 8:15.

After some research, we decided to throw research out the window and go with another Staple of an OC trip for me. Big Peckers Bar and Grille. They are known for their burgers (why not chicken wings with a name like that?!)

We waited extra so we could sit outside on the big gliding tables. SO fun. But it started to get COLD! We had a nice dinner together and then packed up and headed home around 10:30. I drove about 2 hours and then I as getting super tired, I let Matt bring us home!

excuse my poor posture, I was huddled up to keep warm!!

Such a wonderful, spontaneous day. We had no real plans, just did as we pleased. I loved spending the whole day with my love.